not only does my head feel like its being crushed
my jaw has now swollen and is throbbing
I have a huge ulcer right at the front of my mouth so I have a trout pout
and to add insult to injury am on the cullen cocktail
the universe hates me
August 2012
wanted: bed time cuddle assistant
requirements:
must be small spoon and not generate too much heat
that is all
painkillers are killing period pain, not the blinding headache from falling off Sasha
lame
someone of facebook just said "some people are like glass books see through"
I don’t see how that’s a good comparison
a glass book would be see through but impossible to read
its like a double negative or something
so this morning Martin (le bruv) is riding Sash for me, as I've been told I'm not allowed yet
she’s going really nicely
she did try be a Spanish Lipizzaner earlier in walk
but she’s behaved
and she looks really good
Martin says she’s improved too
he rode her 2 weeks ago and didn’t like her at all
he likes her now, says she’s definitely improved and is going a lot better
so yay for all my hard work
and yay for Sasha
and now I don't remember if I mentioned that I fell of Sasha
urgh short term memory is fucked man
I’m not even angry
I’m being so sincere right now
even though you broke my heart
and killed me
and tore me to pieces.
and threw every piece into a fire
so this morning I fell off Sasha, and think she kicked me in the head as I fell for good measure
went to hospital
glued up the hole I got in my chin from god know what
told le rents to keep an eye on me for the next 24 hours
great
I'm an all or nothing kind of person
I haven’t figured out quite how to be in between yet
and its very rare that am in nothing mode
but I am in a nothing mode at the moment
and its so depressing and infuriating
am like, I wana be myself, but I just can’t find it inside meself
it sounds pathetic
I’m making myself a hot water bottle to cuddle tonight, considering I don’t have a bed time companion
I feel ill
I just want bedtime cuddles
I've been trying to convince myself that I don't fancy my boss
but I do
and I like how every time we work together out cars end up next to each other
our shitty little red cars parked side by side
I always leave a space next to me and he fills it
and vise versa
I think its cute
and am taking it as a sign that he likes me
even if he doesn’t
omfg am not dead
haven’t posted in forever coz I’ve been busy doing the same shit every day and didn’t want to bore people
plus I still only have my phone to blog off so its super shit
either way
had a nice day
doing well with Sasha
had massive noms
enjoyed Brave immensely
now ready to fall asleeps
coz am starting to feel poorly
and with how many people have been sick its a miracle I’ve not been ill sooner
if I actually have any followers left
thanks for sticking around
much love etc
I want a bedtime cuddle partner that isn't a giant plush shark from IKEA
Valegro is a beast of an animal
I can't believe how much I love Sasha, I've only had her 6 days, and I know she's going to be amazing
she has lovely pacing
and with a lot of practice she’ll be great
and I know she’ll be able to jump when it comes to training her
she’ll be a star
I has all the faith
